Sunday, January 24, 2010

“The greatest barrier to success is the fear of failure.” Sven Goran Eriksson


There is so much we have to do tomorrow. Most of it involves little to no actual leg work but it's still going to be time consuming. I've been really in the mood to sew lately and I've made a couple purses that I think are adorable but I'm having really big confidence issues.

Not really with me but more with the crafts I make. I am so down on myself because it seems like none of my stuff on Etsy sells. It just expi
res and then I feel so let down. I love ALL of hte stuff I make. I put a lot of time and effort into making things and for no one to buy them is disappointing. It's even more disappointing to have over 200 views on some items and still no sales.

Last night I was making some new hair bows at Tim's parent's house and Makayla (5) and Mackenzie (4) wanted to "help". I decided that since the ribbon was free, the thread was free, and with me watching it's not like they were going to hurt themselves, I would let them help. They had a blast. I let them cut the ribbon at the right lengths and even let them sew the thing themselves. They were so proud.

Then my sister's friend comes in and is looking at some of the one's that I have finished. She loved them. I gave her the one she really took an interest in because let's face it, I'm not going to sell it. And then she tells me that she buys off Etsy! Come on! I really want to sell my hair bows on Etsy but I'm just so scared of getting let down again. Maybe I'll work up enough courage to put a few up when we get back to the house but I don't want to make any promises to myself. Here's to hoping I find the courage.


Thursday, January 21, 2010

NOAM CHOMSKY: It is the responsibility of intellectuals to speak the truth and expose lies.


Yesterday started off like any other day but it sure did not end that way! So Tim has been waiting for his payment from the VA since before October of last year and there was still no news. We were trying to give them the benefit of the doubt because there are thousands of veterans who are going through the same thing that we are but we decided to give them a call just to see.

When Tim finally got through after being told about 10 times that the line was busy and being hung up on and then waiting almost 30 minutes for a person to finally pick up and the women on the other end takes Tim's heart and just crushes it. The VA hasn't received anything from Victor Valley College that says you're enrolled or any information at all for that matter!

What! How is that possible! You see we went to the Vice President of the school because we had many problems with this in the past and we thought it was fixed. Tim had the blinds of the help window shut in his face and was told 3 seperate times that the paperwork had been submitted. All lies. All of it.

So we decided to take a drive over to VVC and
we walk straight into the President's office and we talk to his secretary, Victoria. She was very helpful and called the women, the lying women, who deserves to have her job stripped from her and she tells Victoria that she has Tim's file and she still needs to do some work on it before she can fax it to VA!

WHAT!?!?!? Are you kidding me woman? You told the Vice President himself that you had sent the information already and even gave a copy of what you claimed to have sent! That's just bologna. So Victoria stresses that the VA needs her to fax this information ASAP and that we need three specific things to be included in the fax. She proceeds to tell Victoria that she wants to digitally send it instead of fax it even though we just got off the phone with the VA representative who specifically stated that we should
fax it so she would be able to make Tim's case a priority. Once Victoria tells this lying women that we are going to talk to the President all of a sudden she will have the paperwork done and sent within ten minutes.

Grr. Just grr. We did speak with the President who honestly seemed more like he had heard these types of stories about his employees than actually showing concern for the disabled veteran's whose only source of income is being stripped away by one women whom he employs.

So the Vice President calls the lying woman and makes s
ure that the paperwork is being sent. We of course don't believe a word that she says because she has already told us three times that it was sent. He walks us over to the building that she is in and we receive the copy of the fax that she sent and this time we also get the cover sheet. We realize that one of the three things that needed to be on the fax is not there and that's when the Vice President pawns us off to the financial aid director.

The man was very nice and cordial but boy did he hate when we called his employee a liar. That's what she is. A lying liar that lies. So we'll see if the paperwork goes through this time. And of course the VA is closed on Thursday and Friday so they can process more claims so we have to wait until Monday until we can call and check.

Overall, VVC sucks and if on Monday that paperwork didn't go through there will be letters written or something. Grr. Oh and it snowed! It snowed in the High Desert. So weird.

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

If everyone is thinking alike, then somebody isn't thinking. George S. Patton


Grr! So it's the 19th of January and I'm just now deciding that my blog needs to be updated! I 'm mad at myself because I have the worst memory and therefore I don't remember all of the great things that are happening all around me! I need to be more grateful for all of the things that I have.

I have a WONDERFUL husband! I love him so much. He's an amazing man. Our anniversary is coming up on February 25th and we'll have been married for 6 years. It's crazy to think about it because it went by so fast.

That's because over 4 years of my life were consumed completely by the Army and now I don't really even want to remember those years at all. They were not happy years filled with great memories. That's not to say that great things didn't happen during those years but it's really not something that I'm proud of. I'm not proud that I sacrificed my personal beliefs and squelched so much of what I thought I stood for but it's over. It's done. I can't take it back and I think I need to just own it.

Anywho, I think I'll try and write more often because I think
it'll be therapeutic. I really love writing. I always have. I'm also going to try and keep up on my website. It's hard because I feel like I'm the only one who cares about it but as long as I care about it I guess that's all that matters.



Wednesday, November 4, 2009

“You must believe in free will; there is no choice”  Isaac Bashevis Singer


So, I tried Grape Nuts hot today and I love it! So tasty. And the past couple of days I've had homemade minestrone soup and Costco muffins. Food has been treating me well. Even though I'm still fighting my cold my appetite has been ok which is awesome.

Tomorrow is a math test. Ahh! I hate tests. They
make me so nervous. But this weekend I might be able to go to a Mary Kay makeover thingy because I won a $15 gift certificate and a free make over. I hope that I can get someone to go with me though because I think it'll be awkward without. Maybe Hannah will want to go. That sounds like a good plan.

And Aaron texted me and said that he got me a gift. I'm a lucky gal.

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

If you want to be happy, be. ~Leo Tolstoy


I can't believe tomorrow is already Wednesday. The week is flying by. There is an High Desert Etsy team meeting this Saturday and I don't know if I should go. I went to one in August and it was really fun but I didn't really get much accomplished by going there. And then the one in September was supposed to happen and I decided I wouldn't go. Then I find out that no one even showed up! I couldn't believe it. So this week they sent out an e-mail saying that this meeting would be more structured. The agenda will include member requirements and upcoming craft shows and events. That sounds like more of my style but I'm worried that I could spend the time at home sewing or go over to my in-laws and have great family time. Ahh, I don't know what to do.

I hate decisions like this because I know that no matter what I do everything will be find but for some reason I'm stressing out over it. I need to stop doing that because I don't want to take out my stress for something so stupid on someone I love. It's not worth it.

P.S. - (This is for you Hannah) This past weekend Hannah and I went into Circle K to get some coffee because I needed my caffeine fix and the total came to $6.66. It's weird. :)



Thursday, October 1, 2009

We do not stop playing because we grow old. We grow old because we stop playing. -Anon


Today we had a psychic come to our English class! I was so excited. When Mrs. BeDell told us that he was coming she asked who believed in magic/psychics/ESP? No one except me believes. I'm telling you just watch Derren Brown and you will become a believer. He's amazing. He doesn't do all the gasping in for air to get his "power" sort of thing. He's just magic. Plain and simple.
I was slightly disappointed today however. The psychic turned out to be Mr. BeDell! Her husband. I was expecting someone who actually believed in it and he shows up and does a few things but mostly tells us that it's not real! Boo. I wanted someone to blow my mind.

Math almost blew my mind today but so far I'm still trucking along there. We had our first quiz in government and I was of course the first one finished. I just get so nervous on test day. It's not like go too fast because I often do well on tests but I know that if I sit there with the test in front of me then I will change answers and add stuff onto the essay question that have nothing to do with the actual question.

So when I get up there the teacher just stares at me. I continue to try and hand my quiz to him and he is still just staring. I just tell him I read fast. He laughs and takes my essay answer and flips the paper over and tells me to write more. I wrote on the back of the paper! That's a lot. I only left off two bullet points from my outline when I had the book in front of me! I couldn't have wrote any more.

So hopefully, I still get a good grade. I guess I'll find out on Monday. I'm excited to see.

Monday, September 28, 2009

Be polite to all, but intimate with few. -Thomas Jefferson

I'm such a lucky girl. I have great family and this weekend I met so many new people at the local quilt shop hop. I feel energized. Today at the gym, I had a really good workout and I even listed a new item on Etsy today. It's really cute.

A lot of my items have expired on Etsy because they didn't sell which is a little bit of a let down. But it's ok because it just means that there is more r
oom in my shop for new stuff. I have made quite a bit of stuff but I wasn't sure if I wanted to keep it and try to open a booth at the local Farmer's Market.

It sounded like such a good idea but now I think I may put them on Etsy. Tomorrow is school almost all day. Then we'll study and hopefully I'll make it to the gym because when I don't go I have nowhere to put all the energy that I expend at the gym. Overall, I am just so happy that I have an amazing husband and a great life.